May 17, 1977 ....You were my first Love

Some would say, she was 16 years old in a foster home, what could she possibly offer a baby!  This may be true,  only thing is not every person is the same.  Not every teenage foster girl with a baby is a failure.  For myself,  I was  emotionally strong and prepared to study and work for my daughter and myself.  In spite of my misfortune to not have had a family that would have supported my decision in keeping my baby and what I mean by this,  is I was given an option to have an abortion.  I was pressed and oppressed to not keep  the pregnancy.  I was counseled for days that the best thing would be to abort.  My heart was connected to my unborn child, I could feel her heartbeat, I could feel the warmth of her whole being inside my womb.  Her daily growth filled me with so much strength.  My understanding of being a mother was fierce.  A mother's love was unconditional.  I had so much love to offer her.  Recently I heard someone comment, when a teenager gives birth while being in the care of the State "Foster Home"  the teenager has no rights to keeping her child.  I understand back in the 70's there were no programs to help unwed moms much less, teenagers.  My only hope is to have the opportunity to meet my Daughter someday .  It's only right for her to know the Truth.  I want to know she is okay,  that she is healthy and that she has family that loves her.  What is done is done!!!  I cannot change the past!   I have truly forgiven those who did me wrong.  I call this "down memory lane"    Two people had arrived to take me, I ran to my room and leaned over my baby's crib.  I held her in my arms.  I will never forget her  little face, she was only 9 months old.  She looked scared and clunged onto my blouse.  When the two Social Workers walked in  my room, they asked me to hand the baby over to them.  I was crying and begging why were they taking me away from my baby.  They kept trying to convince me it was for her and my own good. They assured me if I did not cooperate than I would be facing serious charges and that would ruin every opportunity for me to ever get my daughter back.  I finally submitted and gave her over.  They held me by the arm and escorted me outside into a Government vehicle.  My emotions and body went into shock!  The knot in my throat was a pain unbearable. The burning sting in my eyes could not let me see ahead.  I knew some evil was being done to me.  So, back to reality,   I was recently very ill in the hospital, I confess I question if I was coming back home.  I did a lot of thinking while my body laid helpless in that bed.  I admitted I should have left letters or social networks for my Daughter.  If she ever decided to look for me and I was not around to tell her what happen.  I decided if I would recover from my illness I would start writing of what took place almost 36 years ago.  I don't know how much time I have.  But, I do know I will leave plenty for her to read. Dear Milagros, I loved you, I missed you, I never forgot you, my arms ached for you, my always skipped wondering if you were okay.  I dreamed of you laughing, I saw you many times as I walked the streets.  You were my first Love!  I had four more children after you,  which I love dearly.  You have two sister's and two brothers. The youngest is  Franky 16, Angela 26, Aileen 33, and Carlos 34.  We all love you and miss you.  I would never ever come between your family or your life.  I just want you to be Happy.  If you ever read this, I hope and pray that you will reach out to me.  My arms are still waiting to caress your face and hold you!  I love you.....

A Plea to Help Me find My Daughter Born; 5/17/1977

We are looking for "Milagros Aguiar"  born May 17, 1977  in Miami, Florida.  I am her Birth Mother and the two above are her sisters.  The following happen, when the baby was only 9 months old.

A Man and a Woman from Social Services came to the foster home unannounced and removed me first. Three months later the foster parents told me some people from the agency came and took her. Months later my grand parents contacted me that a "letter" arrived from Children and Family Services. I was ordered to appear at Juvenile Court on a certain date. When I arrived on the day of court, her birth father was there. He claimed that he too received a letter to appear in court. We walked in an a lady handed a paper for both of us to sign and I asked where do we go now. And she said, your daughter has been adopted. I asked her how could that be possible I was never contacted. She said, the baby was adopted because I had abandoned her. I explained that was a lie and she said, if you all do not leave quietly I will have you removed!!! That is exactly what happen. I never heard anything again, I had no money or power to do anything. I had a strong feeling there was a more powerful source that I could not confront.

 

Born; 

May 17, 1977

Miami, Florida

Missing;  Milagros Aguiar  

My heart dreams looking into your eyes

and whispering,   I've missed you so

My wish is only a breath  away

Ecclesiastes 3:1

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything

and a season for every activity under the heavens

                                         

 

Psalm 37:4

              Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart

                                                  

                                          

Possibly Adopted 

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